Well, again I have showed…those of you paying attention, that I am not perfect and am completely capable of failing. I am talking of course about my blatant lack of motivation and consistency.  If you read my two previous posts I vowed to re-dedicate myself and get back on track and clearly that did not happen. I am on day 128 of this journey and I think I skipped about 50 days(exaggerating) of my accountability plan of posting DAILY to this blog to track my progress.

I tend to be the type of person that is really hard on myself and if I slack at all I feel so guilty and then the infamous  ‘snowball’ effect occurs and before I know it I am buried. I feel like I have been that person my whole life and I am completely sick of it!  I always feel like I am finally in a good rhythm in my life and them BAM! Back to square one, just like that! I am sure I am not the only one who feels this way…right? I have had people tell me they understand and feel the same way and most often these people tell me that that is just the way life is. Well I am not willing to except that answer. Life is too short to just let it pass me by like that and I am bound and determined to find a way to accomplish consistency and growth. Now I am not expecting to be perfect by any means, but I am expecting to change my course and stay consistent.

Now you may be wondering exactly what I am referring to and I have a long list…this is not just about losing weight, getting fit and eating right, it’s about everything…staying consistent with my work flow at work, actually finishing the tons of books that I have started reading and never finished, reading my bible on a consistent basis, my daily yoga practice, that has now turned into a once a week thing…starting projects at home and never finishing them. Starting potential business ideas and never seeing them through…the list just goes on and on. I’ll spare you the other half of my list of self-disappointments. My point is simply this: Life is not allowed to take over. We are humans who are capable of doing phenomenal things with our time on earth. I think a lot of the problem is that we think…or at least I think things happen overnight and that just isn’t true. Things take time to master.

So I make a pledge to you. Today I start a new phase of my self-discovery journey. I have done these many times before, but this time I will stay the course and keep my head up no matter how many times I may temporarily slack.

Life is meant to be experienced and I am thankful for the opportunity.

Here goes nothing.

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